Bargain (n.):

1. an agreement between parties settling what each shall give and take in a transaction.

I'll make you a deal. I'll prove to you that I am that strong girl you know and love... and you prove to me that all guys are not the same.

Broken (adj.):

1. weakened in strength, spirit.
2. not functioning properly; out of working order.
3. reduced to fragments.

"And this is the sound of a broken heart beating.
Almost died when I found your heart cheating.
I won't survive very much longer."

Weakness (n.):

1. the state or quality of being weak; lack of strength; feebleness.
2. an inadequate or defective quality, as in a person's character; slight fault.
3. the longing to go running back to him in tears; the longing to say, "I know I said I wouldn't call, But I'm all alone, And I need you now."

But, what would be the use. He hurt me too... hurt me more. I can't forget that. So, I'll sit here, surrounded by all of the people who will listen and nod, and look at me with their empty stares and their pitying eyes... the ones who will never really understand. I guess it's something I'll have to sacrifice for the sake of growing stronger.

Home (n.):

1. any place of residence or refuge.
2. the place in which one's domestic affections are centered.
3. an environment offering security and happiness.

Ex. "I fall asleep with my friends around me, Only place I know I'll feel safe.
I'm gonna call this home."

Determined (adj.):

1. resolute; staunch.

Ex. I am determined. Determined to be successful. To make it on my own. To be free. To be loved. To be beautiful. To live each moment. I am who I am. It is no one else's job. It is no one else's responsibility. I am determined to be who I want to be.

Jealousy (n.):

1. a feeling of jealous envy.
2. a suspicion or fear of being replaced by a rival.
3. a picture, a joke, or a word that reaches down inside of you and plants that dark, familiar, and loathed sense of paranoia.
4. a longing for him to not be okay with her.
5. a fleeting fear that isn't worth ruining a love over.
6. a sorry excuse for my episodes.

What I wouldn't change...

...given the chance, is everything bad that ever happened to me. If even one thing were different, I would not be as strong, passionate, openminded, or pure of heart. I wouldn't be who I am.

But more than that, I wouldn't be the girl that someone loves.
And that simple fact makes it all worth it.

100% Satisfaction.

"With friends like these,
Who needs enemies?"

♥Quad, Trio, SMH, Seniors :)

New Year's Resolutions

I will...
1. Manage my time.
2. Start making it for myself.
3. Live in the present.
4. Be more active.
5. Make the most of my days.
6. Be less jealous/paranoid.
7. Forget my fears.
8. Re-learn the piano.
9. Not be defined by others' thoughts.
10. Love more deeply than ever.
11. Paint.
12. Avoid drama.
13. Let myself find peace of mind.