The moment my life gets turned upside down...

...again.

I know this is what we need. I know we would not make it in the long run without this. I know that this is what has to happen, because I myself am confused about my emotions... because I don't even think I know myself.

It's just so weird not saying "I love you." Not kissing him goodnight. Not knowing that I'm going to be with him for the rest of my life. It's so weird how nothing has really changed, but at the same time everything has changed. It's still early in this whole process... I just don't really know how to act at any given moment when he's here or we're hanging out. I know that things will work out however they're supposed to in the end... I'm putting 100% faith in Him to guide me to the next step in my life. A lot of things are changing right now and I think, more than anything, I'm just scared. I'm scared of being alone. I'm scared of losing him. But most of all, as always, I'm scared of making a mistake.

The moment I could use somebody.

I've been roaming around, I was looking down at all I see.
Painted faces fill the places I can't reach.
You know that I could use somebody,

Someone like you and all you know and how you speak.
Countless lovers under cover of the street.
You know that I could use somebody,
Someone like you.

Off in the night while you live it up I'm off to sleep,
Waging wars to shake the poet and the beat.
I hope it's gonna make you notice
Someone like me.

Hate (n.):

1. intense dislike; extreme aversion or hostility.

2. expressing or arousing feelings of hatred; hate mail.

Accepted Truth #1: Most of the time, it takes more energy to hate someone than to love someone.

Accepted Truth #2: Hate is almost always deeply rooted in feelings of jealousy and resentment.

So, keep wasting all of your energy on hating me, and I'll continue focusing my energy and spending my time on bettering myself and my life.

The moment you need to be reminded.

Do you remember how it used to be?
We'd turn out the lights and we didn't just sleep.
Remind me, baby, remind me.
Oh, so on fire so in love,
That look in your eyes that I miss so much.
Remind me, baby, remind me.

Do you remember the way it felt?
You mean back when we couldn't control ourselves?
Remind me,
Yeah, remind me.
All those things that you used to do
That made me fall in love with you.
Remind me, oh, baby, remind me.

I wanna feel that way,
Yeah, I wanna hold you close.
Oh, if you still love me,
Don't just assume I know.

The Golden Rule (n.):

1. a rule of ethical conduct, usually phrased, "do unto others as you would have them do unto you," or, as in the Sermon on the Mount, "whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so unto them." Matt 7:12, Luke 6:31

Be kind to everyone, don't be quick to judge, and don't assume anything about anyone's situation. There is no way for us to know what the lives of the strangers standing next to us on the street have been like that day. We never know if the bank teller, barista, or customer service representative that we are giving a hard time has reached their breaking point. We never know whether our insults (however concealed or little that they may be) will be that one thing that pushes that person over the edge. You never know if the person serving you your dinner has had a bad night... if they've been shorted cash by their previous tables, if they've dealt with rude customers all day, if they are fighting to make rent, if someone close to them has just died. Never just assume that the look of sadness or frustration in their eyes is a part of their character, and not just their circumstances. We need to stop being so offended; stop taking everything so personally. We need to stop approaching this life with the thought "how can I get more for less?" and instead approach it with the question "what can I do to help someone out today?" We just need to slow down, and take a minute to notice a small detail of someone else's life, and maybe, just maybe, completely turn their day around.