Sunday, November 29, 2009

The most wonderful place in the world:

North/South Carolina...

1) The hospitality.
2) The accent (yes, I pick it up.)
3) The seafood nommmmmmmmmmmm.
4) The Tarheels.
5) The palm trees.
6) SC seasons: Almost summer, summer, still summer, and Christmas.
7) The barbeque.
8) Originial sodas in glass bottles.
9) The beaches.

Carolina girl at heart. <3

Friday, November 27, 2009

The most wonderful time of the year:

Thanksgiving/Christmas time....

1) Christmas music on Lite 98 from Thanksgiving to Christmas Day.
2) Hot apple cider.
3) Christmas lights.
4) Snow... maybe.
6) The December feeling...
7) Starbucks' Gingerbread Latte.
8) Shopping.
9) Family.
10) Joy.

Peace on Earth... Goodwill towards men. :D

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Two Roads to Walk Down...

...and one road to choose.

Could I have known that my blog post, August 14, 2009 would be so very true? My life since that day has not been the same, and I feel myself falling further and further each day.

The biggest crossroad of my life to date... and it's one that I never expected. Choosing between being with my best friend and not? What kind of choice is that. Apparently, the most difficult one I've ever made, because it's tearing me apart.

And the worst part is, that I know... I do... want back what we had. What kills me is that the feeling is not there anymore. And it's terrifying... terrifying to think that such strong feelings and love and experiences are gone like, that. But I don't know him... I've missed him so very much... and I still do. The one who was mine... who was us... who was our drives, and dinners, and movies and beaches.

But somehow, I had to say no. I'm resisting, and it's breaking my heart, but still, I'm going... I have to. For me. I know I do, despite the pain. It's a bittersweet loss, a bittersweet victory. But I know that I'm not alone.

I don't understand my life

Or the version that chose you

And the warring hearts and winter came

Now there's nothing left to do

And I cannot reach the world today

Cause I'm suffering from two

And the more I think, the more we die

As I walk away from you.