..truly becomes clear.Yeah, for me, it's about giving people peace of mind. And yes, it's about a personal motivation to do what's right. And yeah, I wish that it could be as fair and pure as I believe it should be. But, I've come to see that without experiencing a little injustice, the burning passion for justice, and the determination to make something better, simply would not exist.
...and stop looking back.I can keep wishing that certain things hadn't happened. I can keep thinking about times when I was happier. I can keep hoping I'll look like I did before. I can keep wanting the bad memories to go away. Or I can make them go away. I can make myself who I want to be... I can look how I want to look. I can love better than I ever have, and make myself happier than I've ever been. I can do things that will make up for the things I wish I hadn't done. I can forgive the things I wish others hadn't done. I can look forward, and I can take control.
...it never really feels that different.Try telling that to your year-younger self. One year ago, I hadn't lost the love of my life. One year ago, I hadn't made so many mistakes. One year ago, I hadn't gotten hit by a car. I hadn't been jaded, I hadn't become lost, and I hadn't found myself. One year ago I didn't have a job, nor did I have so many great memories with so many awesome people. I hadn't realized I wasn't unbreakable. I hadn't realized how reckless I was. I hadn't experienced things that made me thankful just to be able to laugh or wash my hair. I hadn't forgiven some people, and I hadn't yet needed forgiveness from others. So no, in a moment, there's not much that changes. But in a year, there's plenty.
...happens to you.You always think, "I'll keep my head on straight." You always think, "I'll remember the license plate number." You think you'll be able to tell someone exactly what happened. You think you'll be able to file a report... to win a case... to get some money. You always think wrong.
...my soul comes alive.It's like the world is on fire. It's like glitter falls from the heavens. For a brief moment in the day, everything bad, ugly, and stressful melts away into the light. It makes me realize how beautiful this place really is. I realize how beautiful my home is, how beautiful my love is, and how beautiful my life is.
