Thursday, February 24, 2011

The moment you start to question...

What if I can't trust myself?
What if I just need some help?

Senseless (adj.):

1. stupid or foolish, as persons or actions.
2. nonsensical or meaningless.
Maybe I wouldn't be so scared of these things that I feel, these impulses I have, these thoughts... if they made sense. If they had a reason behind them. If I could trace their origin. Because at least then, if I knew where they came from, I could destroy them.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

The moment you know you can call on them...

...anytime of day or night.
Even though we're not with each other all the time, we're always there for each other.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Overworked (adj.):

1. to have been made to work too hard, too much, or too long; weary or exhausted with work.
2. worked beyond one's strength or capacity.
Ex. a. On average, 22 hours of work, 15 hours of school, theoretically 45 hours of study, and 8-12 hours of guard per week.
b. 3 exams within a 19-hour timeframe.


Sunday, February 20, 2011

To ignore (v.):

1. to refrain from noticing or recognizing; to ignore insulting remarks.
2. to fail or refuse to notice; disregard.
"So don't you worry your pretty little mind,
People throw rocks at things that shine."

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Free (adj.):

1. enjoying personal rights or liberty.
2. existing under, characterized by, or possessing civil and political liberties that are, as a rule, constitutionally guaranteed by representative government.
3. exempt from external authority, interference, restriction, etc., as a person or one's will, thought, choice, action, etc.; independent; unrestricted.
4. able to do something at will; at liberty.
5. clear of obstructions or obstacles, as a road or corridor.
6. exempt or released from something specified that controls, restrains, burdens, etc.
I'm glad that I'm free from whatever anyone else thinks, assumes, or believes about me. It frees me to be me, and that's so much more fulfilling and so much less tiring than being anybody else.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

The moment dreams start becoming reality.

I love wedding planning with my besties. :)

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Gold (n.):

1. a precious yellow metallic element, highly malleable and ductile, and not subject to oxidation or corrosion. Symbol: Au; atomic weight: 196.967; atomic number: 79.
2. a quantity of gold coins.
3. a monetary standard based on this metal.
4. money; wealth; riches.
5. something likened to this metal in brightness, preciousness, superiority, etc.
Ex. How do I know he has a heart of gold?
Because every step they take and word they say to try to make him into one of their monsters simply drives him even further away.

And that's what I'm most proud of him for.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

The moment you diagnose the problem...

Lately I've been having trouble sleeping.

...I never had that problem when you were here.

A moment to appreciate: My best friend.

8:32pmAmy - eeheeheehee i'm talking to myself.

8:32pmChelsea - i know! i am that myself!

8:32pmAmy - well, if it isn't you, myself.

8:32pmChelsea - tis i that is me, you.

8:33pmAmy - i can see that myself, thank you you.

8:33pmChelsea - then don't be so arrogant, me. you cannot take it.

8:34pmAmy - you and i both know this. myself is very sensitive.

8:34pmChelsea - a bit TOO sensitive methink, myself.

8:34pmAmy - i feel like this is shady, says i to you, myself.

8:34pmChelsea - shady, i say?

8:35pmAmy - yes. i seem to know too much about myself, you think.

8:35pmChelsea - i think so. this conversation is over!

8:35pmAmy - no! don't leave me, you!

8:35pmChelsea - you have done this to myself.

8:36pmAmy - this i know to be true. you and i were never meant to be.

8:36pmChelsea - i'm glad you have realized this, myself. it saves us the awkward conversation.

8:37pmAmy - i will miss you, me.

8:37pmChelsea - and i you, myself. good riddence.

8:38pmAmy - goodbye, you. i hope you have a good life. peace out, homeself.

8:39pmChelsea - CRABS.

8:40pmAmy - that is innappropriate.
Real life. Real us.
I wouldn't judge you if you were jealous. :)

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

The moment you truly understand what you have.

I have intelligence. I have no handicaps. I have resources. I have the ability. I have the drive. I have been given the opportunity to learn. I have been given the opportunity to work.

I have a job. I have a house. I have a car. I have food on the table. I have clothes on my back. I have a lot of luxuries. I have money in my pocket. I have a warm shower. I have a bed.

I have the love of the one person in the world that I want it from the most. I have the love of my very best friend. I have a confidant. I have a soulmate. I have the most beautiful love story. We have more history than all the books. I have established trust. I have someone who knows me. We have overcome all obstacles. I have faith that we can overcome anything. We have more than the jealous little girls could ever dream of. We have more than the selfish little boys could comprehend. We have a real life together. We have a home. We have plans, and dreams. We have a cat. I have more in him than I ever could have dreamed of. We have something no one could take away. We have a love that is timeless. I have my past and my future, and my present, all in one.

I have THE best friends. I have a support system. I have a (few) shoulder(s) to cry on. I have people to laugh with. I have people to keep me in check. I have hearts that care about me. I have people that will check up on me. I have faith that my disappearance would be noticed. I have hearts that understand. I have the best time with them. I have a helping hand, or just a place to vent. I have life-saving devices. I have a family.

And when I look at it this way... I really have nothing to bitch about.